Taking blood and making art

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"Don't break me I bruise easily, those source of both your love and misery, I am steady beating endlessly while you are dozing, dreaming pretty things...lovely things, I don't work for free. Please take care of me...this a message from your heart, your most devoted body part, taking blood and making art."


Hearing the words flow and slowly drifting off into another world.
There he stood, smiling and I uttered these words from my mouth and they flowed in his ears.
Could those words possibly have came from the mind of another individual?
Or was it really my own words I spoke?
Who was he?
FLASH

"Doritos Crash the Superbowl contest winner Kina Grannis..."

I was on the couch---watching the television. My homework being completed by the tip of my pen. Damn homework, always there when you least want it.
Where was that moment I has just felt? Where did it come from? Why so many damn questions with no answers.

My wrist hurts, damn carpal tunnel.

Dr. Appointment soon no worries, my wrist would be in one of those cool braces that Ialways wanted to wear, don't ask me why.

It was that moment I love to feel, being lifted from this world. Into the unknown, how I loved the unknown yet feared it. It's so alluring with is all powerful charm, and yet scary. I was filled with fear, fear of what? That damn fear...

Can you entire exsistence be summed into two parts? Why do we exisit? Why the hell was I thinking so much...haha if anyone could hear my thoughts they would think I was hella crazy with everything going on in my mind. But luckily they cant.

I would confuse anyone and everyone that could possibly listen to my thoughts. My head is moving from moments every millisecond. I do not ever really know where my mind is.

Ah here is comes again.


Everytime you sleep bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum, everytime you eat, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum,
everytime you laugh, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum,
everytime you cryyyyyyyy, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum,
everytime you lieeeeeeeeee-i-o, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum, bum bum bum bum

All those damn bum bum bum bum's they are catchy...

Ever have those artists who just took the words right out of your mouth? Well that is what this girl did. Moments of being and non-being kept taking place. Why so often now? Or maybe it was I never noticed it happened.

You could thank me for a start; This is a message from your heart.

Agh Valentines day is comming up.
Shoot me now.
<3

Message from your heart

I absolutely love this song. Oh my goodness. =] I will post more later on spilling out my guts. But for right night just enjoy the music. =]

<33

To be great is to be misunderstood

This picture made me so happy. I am not positive why... Just the creativity of this photo. It just reminds me of how short life is, and the humor in that. Because I believe life is what you make of it, and it could last as long as it can. There is always time for you to fully do everything that you dream of. There is a certain "law" in life that I really believe in 150%. That "law" is the "law of attraction". If you know anything about the book/movie "The Secret" you understand what I am talking about. I have always been a positive thinker and I feel that contributes to where I am in life, or how everyday of my life turns out. I am in control of my life, no one else. =]


Random....






This will be my snake one day. I think the Emerald Tree Boa is so gorgeously breathtaking. Wow. Thought I would just share that with you when I cam across this photo. If you know me then you know my love for snakes. =]]]

Listen as your day unfolds Challenge what the future holds Try to keep your head up to the sky Lovers, they may cause you tears Go ahead, release your fears Stand up and be counted Don't be ashamed to cry You gotta be You gotta be bad, you gotta be bold, you gotta be wiser You gotta be hard, you gotta be tough, you gotta be stronger You gotta be cool, you gotta be calm You gotta stay together

All I know, all I know is

Love will save the day

Unfamiliar territory

My English teacher is one of a kind. I find that often in her class she makes me use the parts of the brain I have never ever used. You ever have those moments in your childhood that you can remember every detail it seems? Well that would be my essay that I have to create for English 1. And let me tell you that I never really paid attention, in detail, to these moments. I just saw them as any ordinary moments that happened, but when you cannot remember many experiences from your childhood these are significant in many ways. I will write more from my essay as the time arrives... but I would not let things just pass you by. If you remember moments in you childhood, or even from last week, do not let them go unnoticed. It really could be a moment of "non-being" which is amazing.

Little example...

Riding around the streets of Thailand in the back of my Aunts Toyota Helix I noticed every detail that passee me by. The smells in the air, the posture of people, the color of the sky, the buildings that passed me by. Seeing the poverty around me that made me come to a realization. I am such a small peice that makes up the world. I knew that I was meant for something bigger that the world was mine. I knew in that moment of "awakening" that in the world I would leave something behind to be remembered forever... Life was not just meaningless or undefined. That death was not something to fear... for when I die I know that my life would have been fulfilled.

Zen

This will now be my new place of Zen... I need to find that "non-being" moment I once had.

"Health is the greatest possession. Contentment is the greatest treasure. Confidence is the greatest friend. Non-being is the greatest joy." - Lao Tzu

I'm healthy,

I'm content,

Always confident...

working on the last.